my lines, vines and trying times... (2)

[LINES]
last Sunday, July 2, 2009, was my best friend's sweet sixteen birthday...

before she leaves for school...

i had a plan to give her a surprise greeting...

i even thought of going in her classroom in the morning to greet her...

my goal was to be one of the people to greet her first on her birthday...

i was about to take the risk of being on time in school...

i also thought of stopping by the National Bookstore before going straight to school...

so i can give her a card...


[VINES]
but then...

i thought that she already left for school by the time i would call her that morning!!!

her classroom was far away from mine because it was on the second floor...

while mine was on the first floor...

the bell rang and we were expected to be on our spot or else we're considered late...

so i wasn't able to buy a card for her and greet her first thing...

because the store wasn't open till 7am!!!

i would have been late if i were to wait for the store to open...

[TRYING TIMES]
now...

i'm so gonna give her a birthday card!!!

i'm gonna fill the card from first page to second page...

i might even write a poem for her!!!

also...

come to think about it...

i can also put a picture of the two of us on the card...

or better yet...

i might even do a scrapbook about the two of us for the past years!!!

what happened during our dates and what i felt about them

one of my older cousins came here in the Philippines from Canada. her arrival was last may 29. we we were not the ones who fetched her. it was her boyfriend who did that (she made a choice). so... being her cousin and all, she promised me and my brother to take us out and give us treats. and this is where the story starts...

last Monday, we went to Shakey's to eat dinner. at first i thought that it's just me, my brother, and my cousin. but i was wrong 'cause when my mom asked her who else was going with us she said that there were also her boyfriend and his younger sister. thoughts begin to enter my mind. when we reached our destination, i recommended the "deal 2" in the menu. and they added mojos and one more large pizza. anyway, it was fun because the four of us (me, my brother, my cousin's boyfriend and his sister) made fun of every word that my cousin said. My cousin, even though grew up in the Philippines, has a very slang accent because of living in Canada for eight years. When she says a tagalog word, she mispronounces it and that's very funny for the four of us. She also has a different manner of holding a glass of water and using the utensils which was also funny when you're in a mood of mocking someone. But there were times during the dinner when i don't really know what they're talking about. so the only people laughing is not me which is bummer 'cause everyone was having fun excpet me.

The second date was awhile ago. We went to the mall of asia. the same group last monday. we ate lunch at Highlands Steak House. the food was expensive but the steak and sauces were awesome!!! So we ate. all of us were bloated. then we went ice skating. my brother and i didn't know how to ice skate. so the two of stayed on the sides until we got the hang of it (at least I did. my brother gave up minutes before all of us quitted).

anyway, the thing that pushed me to know how to skate away from the sides was the feeling that i am left behind. although my cousin guided me and my brother at first, she left us on the side and had fun with her boyfriend and his sister who knew a how to skate even a little. The three of them went across the rink and took pictures of them. they also made videos of them. and you don't know how it feels to stay on the side, practice your balance on your skating shoes, while you see the three of them having fun. it's not fair. only the three of them had fun. my brother didn't. he wasn't successful balancing himself. i only had little time to enjoy when i got my balance. but it was too late since we got out of the rink 15 minutes later.

i am very competitive when i feel like i'm left behind. when i'm competitive it's either i want to lose (only when i know there is no way for me to defeat the opponent) or i want to win (that's when i had already enough of being left behind). I have the tendency of having self-determination and self-control. and always, i win when i choose to win. and if i do win, my ego gets bigger and pride takes over. but even though pride takes over, it's either it ends that way (when there is no chance for me to skate again because we don;t go to rinks that often) or i still practice and improve more (when the challenge is within my reach).

after we went ice skating, we played in the time zone. we played games using the card of my cousin's boyfriend. we used the card until there was nothing left. then we went home.

that's it. i have the feeling there's going to be a next date. my cousin is staying for a month. it has only been 3 days since she came from the airport. she still has three weeks and 4 days to schedule a date or more.

who knows what's going to happen to me before she leaves for Canada.

you know, maybe that's why i'm paranoid. we're not that close so we don't connect. yeah, i'm paranoid all right...